I think we all struggle to some level on thinking that God can’t use us because of [name your excuse here]. I was just extremely convicted from a sermon talking about this very subject.
God chose Moses to lead God’s people out of Egypt. Almighty God spoke to Moses, and gave him a calling THROUGH A BURNING BUSH. Even then, Moses didn’t think he could do it, because “[he was] slow of speech and tongue.” Exodus 4:10. That was after God had told him all of the things he was going to do through him. He even turned his hand leprous just before that! God replied and told Moses that he would give him the words and teach him what to say. Moses still asked God to send someone else. I know that this crossed my mind, “Dude, what is your issue, you just heard God talk through a burning bush, and you witnessed all of these miracles… YOU’RE AN IDIOT!” I need to realize that I’m just as bad as he is. I am just as stupid sometimes.
We are so stubborn. Slow to believe that God is really as big as He says He is. Quick to reject His will for us even when we’ve seen Him work time and time again. We let our insecurities direct our steps. We let our past failures hinder the massive plans God has for us.
Something I feel like God is trying to tell me is that He is way more concerned with my availability than my ability. Be ready for God to call you. Don’t ask questions. He’s really big enough to solve your problems, and keep His promises. Use me, Lord. I don’t feel like I have the abilities, but I am available.