I think we all struggle to some level on thinking that God can’t use us because of [name your excuse here]. I was just extremely convicted from a sermon talking about this very subject.

God chose Moses to lead God’s people out of Egypt. Almighty God spoke to Moses, and gave him a calling THROUGH A BURNING BUSH. Even then, Moses didn’t think he could do it, because “[he was] slow of speech and tongue.” Exodus 4:10. That was after God had told him all of the things he was going to do through him. He even turned his hand leprous just before that! God replied and told Moses that he would give him the words and teach him what to say. Moses still asked God to send someone else. I know that this crossed my mind, “Dude, what is your issue, you just heard God talk through a burning bush, and you witnessed all of these miracles… YOU’RE AN IDIOT!” I need to realize that I’m just as bad as he is. I am just as stupid sometimes.

We are so stubborn. Slow to believe that God is really as big as He says He is. Quick to reject His will for us even when we’ve seen Him work time and time again. We let our insecurities direct our steps. We let our past failures hinder the massive plans God has for us.

Something I feel like God is trying to tell me is that He is way more concerned with my availability than my ability. Be ready for God to call you. Don’t ask questions. He’s really big enough to solve your problems, and keep His promises. Use me, Lord. I don’t feel like I have the abilities, but I am available.

Do you ever have those moments with God where you ask Him to speak to you, and it’s like He pile drives you with the truth? I can definitely say that happened a couple days ago.

I was feeling pretty empty for lack of being in God’s Word. I sat down and got serious with God; He spoke some serious truth to me.

I heard a sermon on the radio talking about hardened hearts. I soon realized that mine was much harder than I would like it to be. Hebrews 3:7-8 basically says if you hear God’s voice today, don’t harden your heart. I wasn’t ever against God, but he explained that if you hear God’s voice, but don’t listen, it’s dangerous. That hit me really hard. I think we as Christians pass this verse up thinking we already have a free pass, so why listen to God right this second? Something that we also forget is that we made a decision to follow Christ, which entails that we actually follow Him by seeking Him in his Word, and developing the gifts He has given us.

I also got another dose of truth about time management from another sermon called “The Power of a Focused Life.” by Mike Bickle. Basically, I need to have a vision about what I want to accomplish in life. From that vision, I need to make goals. From those goals I need to make an action plan, and with that action plan, I need to make a schedule. I know this may sound very rigid, but I promise I’m not trying to be a legalistic Christian. He basically explained how time is life. I am probably the best time waster on the Earth so this sermon was extremely motivating. If you squander time, you are essentially squandering life, and squandering or minimizing the destiny that God has for you.

Wait, that means I actually have to do something, and not just wait for God to put everything in my lap? Oh. Okay. Not that He won’t open doors or that some things won’t just fall in my lap, but I think it’s important that I’m not a spiritual couch potato.

I also think that I’ve been afraid of getting close to God, because the enemy will attack me more. Even though that is true, I seemed to have forgot that God is my shelter and my fortress. When I get closer to Him, I am actually more protected. If I keep myself from getting close to God, because of that reason, I am actually making myself vulnerable to Satan’s attacks.

God has been so gracious to me. It’s time to get my life in order. It’s time to get a vision about what I’m passionate about. It’s time to get serious with God.

I’m never going to change if I wait until feel like making one. God, soften my hard, calloused heart. I need a deep down change from the inside out.